As I was falling asleep last night I made a life changing decision. I had decided that I was going to throw in the towel on my poker career. I never really play for money, mostly for fun. But even when the chips are worthless pieces of plastic to me I still find myself without any control of my anger at times.
Looking back at last evening it was actually kind of stupid. It is funny how two people can argue about something that really isn't worth the effort just because something called pride takes over.
Sometimes I have a hard time dealing with pride and anger. But that has not been my largest problem recently. I have spent most of these last couple of weeks feeling as though I am tired of always having to be nice to people. Sometimes I just want to tell people how it is and how wrong they are. Unfortunatly, because I am not Jesus Christ, I cannot do such things without having a selfish reason behind it.
In the gospels Jesus apears to me as if he is letting people know how it is all of the time. He also tends to seem angry with people at times. Yet, he preaches for people not to act out of anger. So I guess my conclusion with that is that he must have felt differently than the kind of anger that was mentioned when he taught his people. Secondly, because he is Christ, when he told people how it was he was right, no matter what he was right, he could do that because he was perfect and he was sinless.
I guess what I am saying is that I am not Christ, I am not always right even if I think I am. So for the time being I can't always tell people how it is. Choosing my battles is something I hear around the christian blender. Perhaps this statement is something I should take in a little more.
I am a sinner, but hopefully in time I can keep my cool and try my hardest to be more of a Christ figure. Until then I am going all in on a 2 of dimonds and 4 of hearts.