A couple of months ago a friend of mine that I meet with every other week wanted to give me an assignment to turn in to him by April. He gave me plenty of time because he knew I was finishing my undergraduate work. Well now I am finished with my B.A. and April is right around the corner. He asked me what my Philosophy of Ministry was. After thinking about it for a second I realized I had no idea. I could sit in a conversation with him and tell him everything about how I think I could best lead a ministry and what direction I would take and what methods I would use. However, I could not express a official philosophy of ministry.
So here I am trying to put my first draft of one together. I am sure that as I become more experienced and older and involved in different groups this will change, but for now I will have to make a 1.0 edition.
-k
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music: weird fusion jazz
book: They Like Jesus But Not the Church-Dan Kimball
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Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Friday, March 30, 2007
Sunday, March 18, 2007
pixels and plagues
It was a sunny pre-spring evening in downtown. The line was short and when inside, the atmosphere was still. The musician finally took the stage after the opening act--only to have an authentic artist/audience connection (or participation in the art if you will) to be interrupted by 21st century technology that only flooded the room with a plague of digital pixels interruption the artistic moment of the hour. This is what I waited for? I missed my last opportunity (which was for those of a mature age) and so this time I was surrounded by all ages.
So seriously.....when your at a concert (especially David Bazan) please don't whip out your cell phone and start recording. It can be very disrupting and disturbing (especially when 8 are in front of me at once.....no exaggeration). I would prefer watching an authentic concert of the person in front of me, not threw the digital display of someone's cell phone.
Thanks for the consideration my fellow tech frenzy friends.
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music: R.E.M. - Automatic for the People
book: They Like Jesus but Not the Church - Dan Kimball
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So seriously.....when your at a concert (especially David Bazan) please don't whip out your cell phone and start recording. It can be very disrupting and disturbing (especially when 8 are in front of me at once.....no exaggeration). I would prefer watching an authentic concert of the person in front of me, not threw the digital display of someone's cell phone.
Thanks for the consideration my fellow tech frenzy friends.
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music: R.E.M. - Automatic for the People
book: They Like Jesus but Not the Church - Dan Kimball
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Monday, February 12, 2007
I Hate Valentines Day
I hate Valentines Day!
It is not that I have to be alone on such a day.
I hate the fact that it is about making someone else a bunch of money. I hate the fact that we as people have to be reminded to spend time with the ones we care about every year.
I hate the fact that valentines day always falls one of the most busy times of my life when I am trying to balance school and work and a relationship all at the same time.
I wish I could do special things more often so that Valentines Day wouldn't be so important.
Learning to sacrifice your life for another persons life can be really hard.
That is why Christ was the man. He sacrificed his for everybody. And he didn't even need Valentines Day to do so.
That is true love.
-k
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music: Pink Floyd
book: Ham on Rye
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It is not that I have to be alone on such a day.
I hate the fact that it is about making someone else a bunch of money. I hate the fact that we as people have to be reminded to spend time with the ones we care about every year.
I hate the fact that valentines day always falls one of the most busy times of my life when I am trying to balance school and work and a relationship all at the same time.
I wish I could do special things more often so that Valentines Day wouldn't be so important.
Learning to sacrifice your life for another persons life can be really hard.
That is why Christ was the man. He sacrificed his for everybody. And he didn't even need Valentines Day to do so.
That is true love.
-k
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music: Pink Floyd
book: Ham on Rye
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Sunday, December 24, 2006
Christmas Eve
Family tradition as a child was to watch the Muppet Christmas Carol the night before Christmas while eating meat cheese and crackers from Wisconsin. This was followed by the opening of one gift and going to bed awaiting the next morning filled with family time and more gift giving.
Although there were gifts aside this was always a special time spent with my family that I have really enjoyed. I feel the older I get the closer the family gets. I don't know why but this is how it is for me. Although I am an adult in my early 20's I still look forward for Christmas like a little kid. Today I got together with my parents and we went to church together. It was a pretty good service. I hope it brought honor and glory to the savior. I tried my best to stay focused and to worship with a focused heart (I get easily distracted at church sometimes so this can be a struggle for me).
After church I spent time with my family just around the house. I watched some football with my father and then took a nap. This evening we broke our tradition and my brother, and my folks and myself opened gifts the night before. I actually enjoy this tradition. Not for the early gifts but so that the gifts don't take away from the day of Christmas, the celebration of Christs birth. I hope that tomorrow as I spend time with my fiance's family I can make some valuable time paying respect and worship to my Savior.
With everything said I had a wonderful evening with my family again. Great music, books and games were presented to myself which I am very great full for. Tomorrow is not only the day we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ, but it is my finance's birthday! I am very excited for that. She loves special days and I hope it is special for her.
Good Eve to all of you out there!
-k
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Music: Pilot Speed
Book: Pieces-a collection of new voices by Stephen Chbosky (2000)
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Although there were gifts aside this was always a special time spent with my family that I have really enjoyed. I feel the older I get the closer the family gets. I don't know why but this is how it is for me. Although I am an adult in my early 20's I still look forward for Christmas like a little kid. Today I got together with my parents and we went to church together. It was a pretty good service. I hope it brought honor and glory to the savior. I tried my best to stay focused and to worship with a focused heart (I get easily distracted at church sometimes so this can be a struggle for me).
After church I spent time with my family just around the house. I watched some football with my father and then took a nap. This evening we broke our tradition and my brother, and my folks and myself opened gifts the night before. I actually enjoy this tradition. Not for the early gifts but so that the gifts don't take away from the day of Christmas, the celebration of Christs birth. I hope that tomorrow as I spend time with my fiance's family I can make some valuable time paying respect and worship to my Savior.
With everything said I had a wonderful evening with my family again. Great music, books and games were presented to myself which I am very great full for. Tomorrow is not only the day we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ, but it is my finance's birthday! I am very excited for that. She loves special days and I hope it is special for her.
Good Eve to all of you out there!
-k
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Music: Pilot Speed
Book: Pieces-a collection of new voices by Stephen Chbosky (2000)
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Thank you for the English language
So today I had one of the worse days in a long time. Care to share? Yes thank you for asking!
This morning I was finishing that paper that I was ranting about last night. I realized that I needed to have the paper mailed back to me after it was graded so I called the teach to see how she wanted me to go about giving her the proper envelope. She stated that I should just pick up the paper next week during the last quiz. I said, "I am not taking the last quiz because I am happy with my grade after the first three" she went on to ask why I would purposely lower my grade, I said "Im not, the test is optional and since we are dropping the lowest grade of the 4 and I want to just stick with my first three." She goes on to explain that quiz 4 is not optional.
Okay....so here is how this all went wrong.
I originally remember her saying that on December 13th we will be taking our 4th and final optional exam.
I heard 4th and final optional exam like =4th optional exam
She meant 4th and final optional exam like = (4 exam) then a separate (final exam *optional)
Okay so I have been to 1/2 of 1 class of the last 3 classes that apply for this exam.
Because of this change of plans I cancel my work meeting and went to class today to attend the 4th and last quiz that applies for the quiz. However, before doing so I go through a couple of stages:
1. Panic- Everything that could potentially go wrong because of this races through my head and my body begins to shake and go numb.
2. Anger- I begin to yell and get upset with myself in a house alone because I didn't pay attention to details and I am angry on myself. Unfortunatly I was still angry when my finance called. (thank God I have a wonderful understanding fiance who is my best friend and was there for me at a frustrating time)
3. Sadness- I begin to feel sorry for myself because I thought today was the last day I had to worry about this class and now I could relax and focus on one more project that is due next week and begin to have a semi normal week for the first time in a month. (this is the most pathedic stage of them all).
4. Whatever Stage- This is the stage that I am in currently, I finally realized that I am a professional student and I can do it. I may need help from many people like my fiance and that nice girl in class that let me photocopy her notes out of her binder with the profs permission. But it is possible.
Then a friend posts something on my last post that I wish I would have read during all of this, it would have helped.
So I begin to feel better as I drive to a small groups meeting that I am leading in the ministry that I work in.
Then something else happens......
The other person I run this ministry with was sick and called in a good friend of mine to come by and help get things started because on Wednesdays I come in late due to class. He did an amazing job getting the guys together having fun playing games. When it came time to turn it over to me I was suppose to lead us in some wisdom. I was suppose to teach on Discipleship.
Now I am usually okay at teaching to my audience that I often times have to teach to. But something happened tonight that caused me to draw blanks and choke up what I wanted to say. It was quite strange. I went off on some analogy that left those still awake confused. Then my good friend speaks up and offers his analogy (thank goodness) and he tells it for a while and does such a wonderful job making what I wanted to teach sound so simple and easy. But that was the thing is it didn't seem that easy to say. I was left with some questions about myself tonight.
But when it all came down to it my questions were answered by this:
I still am relying on myself way too much in life. I do not give God the credit and I do not ask God for help. I do not surrender to God nor do I give God proper praise. And since I am a man of the Christian faith and I proclaim to be a follower of Christ I need to begin doing this.
maybe once I work on this some more, everything else will begin to fall into place again.
I wanted to teach about Discipleship. Which is like playing a sport and having a coach along side to teach you how to play the game. Maybe I need a coach that I can meet with more often.
Anyways...two nights/two rants
-k
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Music: Sufjan Stevens
Book: Acts 9
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This morning I was finishing that paper that I was ranting about last night. I realized that I needed to have the paper mailed back to me after it was graded so I called the teach to see how she wanted me to go about giving her the proper envelope. She stated that I should just pick up the paper next week during the last quiz. I said, "I am not taking the last quiz because I am happy with my grade after the first three" she went on to ask why I would purposely lower my grade, I said "Im not, the test is optional and since we are dropping the lowest grade of the 4 and I want to just stick with my first three." She goes on to explain that quiz 4 is not optional.
Okay....so here is how this all went wrong.
I originally remember her saying that on December 13th we will be taking our 4th and final optional exam.
I heard 4th and final optional exam like =4th optional exam
She meant 4th and final optional exam like = (4 exam) then a separate (final exam *optional)
Okay so I have been to 1/2 of 1 class of the last 3 classes that apply for this exam.
Because of this change of plans I cancel my work meeting and went to class today to attend the 4th and last quiz that applies for the quiz. However, before doing so I go through a couple of stages:
1. Panic- Everything that could potentially go wrong because of this races through my head and my body begins to shake and go numb.
2. Anger- I begin to yell and get upset with myself in a house alone because I didn't pay attention to details and I am angry on myself. Unfortunatly I was still angry when my finance called. (thank God I have a wonderful understanding fiance who is my best friend and was there for me at a frustrating time)
3. Sadness- I begin to feel sorry for myself because I thought today was the last day I had to worry about this class and now I could relax and focus on one more project that is due next week and begin to have a semi normal week for the first time in a month. (this is the most pathedic stage of them all).
4. Whatever Stage- This is the stage that I am in currently, I finally realized that I am a professional student and I can do it. I may need help from many people like my fiance and that nice girl in class that let me photocopy her notes out of her binder with the profs permission. But it is possible.
Then a friend posts something on my last post that I wish I would have read during all of this, it would have helped.
So I begin to feel better as I drive to a small groups meeting that I am leading in the ministry that I work in.
Then something else happens......
The other person I run this ministry with was sick and called in a good friend of mine to come by and help get things started because on Wednesdays I come in late due to class. He did an amazing job getting the guys together having fun playing games. When it came time to turn it over to me I was suppose to lead us in some wisdom. I was suppose to teach on Discipleship.
Now I am usually okay at teaching to my audience that I often times have to teach to. But something happened tonight that caused me to draw blanks and choke up what I wanted to say. It was quite strange. I went off on some analogy that left those still awake confused. Then my good friend speaks up and offers his analogy (thank goodness) and he tells it for a while and does such a wonderful job making what I wanted to teach sound so simple and easy. But that was the thing is it didn't seem that easy to say. I was left with some questions about myself tonight.
But when it all came down to it my questions were answered by this:
I still am relying on myself way too much in life. I do not give God the credit and I do not ask God for help. I do not surrender to God nor do I give God proper praise. And since I am a man of the Christian faith and I proclaim to be a follower of Christ I need to begin doing this.
maybe once I work on this some more, everything else will begin to fall into place again.
I wanted to teach about Discipleship. Which is like playing a sport and having a coach along side to teach you how to play the game. Maybe I need a coach that I can meet with more often.
Anyways...two nights/two rants
-k
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Music: Sufjan Stevens
Book: Acts 9
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Thursday, November 30, 2006
PDX break
Well. Some great things have happend.
One of my instructors gave me a week extra for my final project to be turned in.
I am almost finished with another final due Wednesday.
This allows me to go to a work meeting in PDX to plan for next summers Camp. I am sure along with work will come much play and mental relaxing from the work of school that has trapped me in a mental cage of brain burnout.
At this point I am simply delaying time until I have to go back to studying, you see tonight I still have to work on my paper. This is quite sad.
Hopefully I escape alive!
See you after the war.
-K
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Music: Radiohead-Kid A
Book: How to be Good-Nick Hornby
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One of my instructors gave me a week extra for my final project to be turned in.
I am almost finished with another final due Wednesday.
This allows me to go to a work meeting in PDX to plan for next summers Camp. I am sure along with work will come much play and mental relaxing from the work of school that has trapped me in a mental cage of brain burnout.
At this point I am simply delaying time until I have to go back to studying, you see tonight I still have to work on my paper. This is quite sad.
Hopefully I escape alive!
See you after the war.
-K
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Music: Radiohead-Kid A
Book: How to be Good-Nick Hornby
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